Saturday, May 21
hmm 3 things to talk about today:
1. elddfs drama - cash on delivery. hilariously side-splitting. but forgettable. i guess it didn't strike me deep, strike me hard enough. i have no chord to strike in that regard anyway. but one thing that did - my sister pointed out that i'm in hwachong but i don't know my way around and i have no friends. that's exaggerating because i can get from my class bench to the staffroom and vice versa. and also i have a few friends from the first three months plus the other two ex st. marg's girls. but she's right. i had to ask directions to get to the drama centre and while she was rushing about saying hi to her friends, i was standing around ignoring everyone. and she's from rj. quite simply, i have no cca, i hate hwachong, and i don't care about getting to know people outside of arts or even my class. but she's right. i'm pathetic.
2. my sister wants to be a lawyer. she wants to go to ucl and read law. strangely enough, after telling my parents that, she asked if i would be mad. well. i'm not mad. i never wanted law. it's just something that everyone else wanted for me. i don't want anything, actually. it's just that being in arts is hard - you've only got about 10% of the options the science people have. and she, a triple science student, wants to read law. i don't understand. but i guess no one did when i switched to arts. from triple science. but really, it's on a different level. anyhow. it doesn't matter. she'll go to england, be a fantastic lawyer, and yours truly will be begging on the streets. okay i'll be honest. all that matters to me are my friends, my music and my poetry. yeah. there now criticise me all you like.
3. i have a
lot of work to do. don't feel like elaborating. yeah.
it must've been love.
10:31 pm
xoxo
